This site is about fitness. I try to write about that, to share my experiences with you as a trainer and coach and how the things that I've learned might help you along your own fitness journey in some way.
Today, I'm not writing about fitness, I'm writing about Mindset. My mindset to be more specific. I want to share with you today things that I thought in the beginning of my fitness career that I would not share here. I wanted to keep this page professional (that has not happened, what the hell does professional mean anyway?) I wanted to talk about fitness and fitness related subjects. But, what does that matter anyway? I'm a personal trainer. 'Personal'. If I can't be personal, then what's the point?
Personal is in my job title for Pete's sake . So, who am I?
I'm a person on a journey. One that's been filled with turmoil, pain, hurt, distrust, anger and confusion. I'm a person that's flawed, a person that's been around the world, a person that's seen the bottom of the hole.
But, let's fast forward to today.
You don't need to hear any of that today, so I'm gonna skip that part and get to the part where I share my thoughts and feelings about today. About right now. After all, today is the only thing that truly matters.
Today, I am so many things that I've always been. I'm loud, I'm crass, I curse like a sailor and don't apologize for being me, I speak the truth and live with honesty and integrity. I do my best everyday to be respectful and kind to myself and people that I encounter. And, I expect no less from those around me. My standards are high and I have no intention to lower them.
Today I am also better. Today my life is solely my own. Today my future is not so uncertain. My lifetime struggle with what my life 'was', is fading. My soul is freer today than it was yesterday. After years of living in a fog of uncertainty, a haze of doubt and making myself very comfortable behind a very thick wall, I am beginning to see clearer, to trust myself, to look within first for my answers, to slowly chip away at and eventually tear down my wall. Today, I can do that.
I've managed to get to today because of one simple thing that I did a handful of years ago. I chose to put me first. To put my own well being, happiness and success at the top of my priority list. The moment I made that choice, said it out loud and sought out the help that I needed was the moment the fog began to clear. I put myself first for the first time in my life. Since that choice was made, and the hard work began on learning who I was and who I wanted to be, my life has changed. I chose to distance myself from toxic relationships, I chose to pursue a career that I was interested in. I chose, and continue to choose to put me first because I started to believe that I do actually matter and that I am allowed to put myself first.
Changing and shifting my mindset is a work in progress and it will always be, but today I woke with a sense of optimism, with a light step and with an open mind. Today I feel like anything is possible for me, truly. It's super scary and I have no idea what tomorrow may bring, but today I know that if I keep choosing to be clear, to be honest, to be me, tomorrow will be fine.
I'm confident in saying that if I can find my way out of the hole, so can you.
Mindset Matters
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